I’ve come to the conclusion with myself that I give myself too much leeway. There’s always an excuse, right? Life happens with a variety of incidents that continuously distract us and pull us away from what we want to accomplish. For me, it’s getting Collected done and published. I am slowly, but surely working on my edits and revisions before shipping my manuscript off to an editor for a fresh set of eyes to comb over it. I have been searching editors for a while now, but have yet to actually make any solid connection with one. Why? Because life happens and I think up until now a part of me was nervous they’d give me a deadline I couldn’t reach to send my work in by. Naturally they would need to, but that would mean I’d have to stop slowing down on my work load when life is happening behind the scenes.
Honestly, until recently I never was quite sure why I do this. The only 100% legit reason I could come up with for myself after some self-examination is simple fear. It’s that fear of failing and perhaps not being “good enough” once my work is out there in the world. Perhaps this is fueled by my depression and anxiety issues, or perhaps this is just a natural part of being human. Either way I know I need to break through this awful barrier of fear and get my work done and out there. I am very much looking forward to building a career as a published author, but that’s not going to happen if I keep allowing setbacks to occur during the creation and publication process of my first book.
So here I am. Sitting here, writing this, and telling myself (and now all of you) I have until the end of March to finish getting my manuscript editor ready. I also have until the end of March to find said editor and hire them! I really feel like setting this deadline for myself as an author will be truly beneficial. I believe it will keep me on track and focused with what I need to get done for Collected. Deadlines don’t work for everybody I know, but for me and for this WIP (work in progress) I feel it’s the best route for me to take.
It’s time to hold myself accountable on this as I need to get it done if I’m going to meet a certain publication date that I have in mind. That doesn’t even mention the other things I need to get the ball rolling on. Hmm…perhaps in a near future post I will share my list of self-publication tasks and needs. I could include where I’m at with it. If you’d be interested in something like that, let me know in the comments below!